Last couple of times it's something like:
"ok, here goes, make a turn, make another turn, oh crap it's choppy, try slowing down, don't fall don't fall don't fall
what the hell am I doing anyway, God I suck
OK, try to get up, why can't I pull myself forward and up?!
: This is embarrassing!!!
Finally back up one way or another, try again, maybe it's back to the green slopes
Clearly that needs as much work as my actual skiing...