I felt good on Saturday, and spent most of the hours from 3-8:30 pm skiing at Bousquet. Snow was thick in spots, shaved to the ice in others, moguled and was snowing all day and night, but I was trying my new Head Cool Thang skis. I like them even though I was still being bounced around
due to Bad Technique. Consider me to be re-learning to ski.
I find it interesting that I started out feeling fairly good that day (while still having a headache), then the next morning woke up with what I can only describe as a 9.5 on a 10 scale of headache pain.
I drug myself around on Sunday, and eventually succumbed to bed about 5 pm, with the intent of reading the paper and taking a short nap. I woke up feeling worse around 6:30........I asked Jeff to give me another half hour and woke at 7 feeling even worse.
The interesting thing is that I can move my head without neck pain and that gritty sand against bone sound/feel isn't there. I thought for sure I would have some neck pain. I don't.
Today......headache is still here upon waking, and didn't leave all day. I am struggling to get anything done because I just want to curl up and die.
I've always been energetic and one of those Type A people. Now I can barely force myself to do the basics. It's frustrating and depressing, and while I still get up and get dressed every day, I'm wondering what would happen if I just gave up and spent the day doing what my body is crying to do (nothing but sleep). And what if that cry is from depression, and not from a physical need?
I see the neurologist tomorrow for a one month follow up on the botox. I want my face back. Is there an anti-dote to this stuff? It sure isn't doing what he'd hoped would happen. I just don't know where to go from here to get something resembling life back.