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post #811 of 1017
A bunch of us flew (drunk) from NY to MPLS for my sister's wedding. A friend of my brother-in-law stole the seat belt from the plane . He pulled up the cushion and disconnected it, clipped the two end clips back together,then wore it like a belt. He sat in the seat then said check this out as he stood up with the lap belt still around his waist. He left it on and realized he still had in on while walking through the airport. I wonder how long the next person to sit in that seat looked around and dug between the seats before they got a flight attendant to inform them there wasn't a seat belt
post #812 of 1017
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Originally Posted by Pete No. Idaho View Post
Don't give up ladies, they (insurance co's) want you to give up, in fact they count on the majority to just give up.

If I am lucky this year I will get to ski with both of you.

Any snow at whitefish yet. We have a whoping 5 inches.
God, no. I doubt if they can open on opening day unless a miracle occurs.
post #813 of 1017
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Snowing in Spokane at the moment.

My head is doing tolerably well. I can't pinpoint the REMEDY! Is it the Botox kicking in, the chiro appointments (3 so far), or the dry Spokane climate lacking indigenous plant allergens??
post #814 of 1017
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Originally Posted by Bonni View Post
Snowing in Spokane at the moment.

My head is doing tolerably well. I can't pinpoint the REMEDY! Is it the Botox kicking in, the chiro appointments (3 so far), or the dry Spokane climate lacking indigenous plant allergens??
The cure is clear. Make it so.
post #815 of 1017
I dunno, Spokane vs Vermont. There's actually a lot going for both. I dunno which would be nicer! I wouldn't have thought there'd be many pollens and things around this time of year though?

Looking forward to seeing you both at the Gathering, it will be awesome!
post #816 of 1017
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And also good to see you again, Ant!

I found some kind of pattern. I worked hard all weekend: moving, cleaning, etc.

Last night, felt nauseous and had the trots so bad we had to make a pitstop for a 20 minute trip. After that I couldn't sleep and got 3 hours of 'rest'. Woke up at 5 am with a killer headache.

I'm allergic to physical hard labor!

The chiro today helped a little, but not enough. I just want to crawl into a hole and die.

Home in the morning. More air travel, lovely.
post #817 of 1017
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Originally Posted by Bonni View Post
And also good to see you again, Ant!

I found some kind of pattern. I worked hard all weekend: moving, cleaning, etc.

Last night, felt nauseous and had the trots so bad we had to make a pitstop for a 20 minute trip. After that I couldn't sleep and got 3 hours of 'rest'. Woke up at 5 am with a killer headache.

I'm allergic to physical hard labor!
I don't know enough about sympathetic and parasympathetic fatigue to come up with any sort of theory or meaningful explanation, but those symptoms are eerily similar to some overtrained athletic ones.
post #818 of 1017
Thread Starter 
The only thing I could be considered 'overtrained' is the ability to write about every little thing that irritates me.

I'm in Denver waiting for a flight. I have to say that this trip has been unusual in that I haven't had any disruption in my flights so far. That may change. I'm flying the last leg of my flight home on US FRIGGING AIRWAYS out of Philadelphia.....at 8:30 pm.

Thanks, Ted, for giving me trepidation for Thanksgiving.
post #819 of 1017
Been skiing have we? I heard a rumor...
post #820 of 1017
Thread Starter 
The rumor you heard was right. I skied for a very short time today, and here's proof on the green at Bousquet (oooh, big deal):


I still have a little bit of pain from the muscle pull in the right hip and ankle (from falling down the steps), and after this picture I went in and took off my socks....my ankle was killing me.... and did much better. Still, I stopped before I could do any damage. heh heh

When I had my picture taken for the pass, I told her that I'd have to make this face for the photo if they want to recognize me on skis:

I'm convinced that the HA's are from something local....water comes to mind. I'm going backward again and I've only been home 5 days. Grrr.
post #821 of 1017
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$%*&**@!!!* Gastarastafratarax!!

I had the 24 hour flu, which totally kicked my ass. I'm as weak as a kitten. I have to hang on when going up the stairs because I can't get the body to work yet after the fever, chills, vomiting, diarrhea, and extreme HA and muscle aches.

Naturally, this weekend we're skiing at Belleayre while skier_j attends a clinic both days. We're lodging with comprex and Batgirl, who are coming up from the DC area. I have to feel like shyte. I could just spit.

I have 2 days to get better. Sleeping and taking in as much liquid as I can (which still isn't enough). ARGH!
post #822 of 1017
Girl, do not stress yourself out about getting better to the point that you end up getting worse. We'll have fun no matter what.
post #823 of 1017
Great to hear you got back on the boards, Bonni.
post #824 of 1017
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Thanks, Kneale.

I skied at Belleayre Saturday from 10-4, taking time off for lunch. I also skied Sunday from 11-3:30, more or less. Comprex and Batgirl joined me both days and we had ourselves a pretty good time. Thanks, guys! Trip report (with piccys) coming soon to a forum near you.

As usual, I clicked into bindings feeling weak (from being sick all week) and headachy (the New Normal), and within a few runs, all that I was feeling was the nauseating spear of irrational fear (dum dum DUUUUUUUM).

The fear is subsiding a little more each run I make, and it will take some time before I'm able to stop making that a priority, but I know it will happen.

I've decided that I need help, and I've called a woman who teaches at our local hill and we're going to have a private lesson sometime this week to see what I need to work on, then I'll join her for the Monday women's clinic starting in January. I needs more tools.

I hurt good.
post #825 of 1017
Thread Starter 
Holy Fishpaste! I actually feel good. Lingering headache, but overall, nothing hurts.

What's Wrong??
post #826 of 1017
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Originally Posted by Bonni View Post
Holy Fishpaste! I actually feel good. Lingering headache, but overall, nothing hurts.

What's Wrong??
It sounds like fresh air does the most good. Back to something in your house again? Remember you were saying that exercise caused the pain, but here you are feeling well (for you). I know you think you eliminated something in the house, but maybe the nose snort has caused more sensitivity to something as suggested earlier. Could be paint, new carpeting, something to do with your heating/cooling system, who knows? Maybe just sitting outside for several hours a day can help, but I think you've got to look at what's IN your house is causing this. I could see where inhaling something would cause pain that could go on for hours before whatever it was got cleaned from your system, then you reenter the house and it starts again. An air freshener? If you have a forced air system, maybe getting one of those HEPA filters for it and washing it a lot would help until you uncover the culprit? And did Spokane improve things or not? Sounds like between the Botox and the slip on the stairs that you can't tell if things were better there or not.
post #827 of 1017
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It sounds like fresh air does the most good. Back to something in your house again?
we moved since this started, I'm leaning away from location or things in the house, although not entirely! we are still in the same water system.

If it is environment, I'm wondering if it might be something in the water treatment in town??
post #828 of 1017
Bonnie on Boards ... Great news !!

I told ya you were tough !

Take care.

RMP
post #829 of 1017
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Originally Posted by Bonni View Post
Holy Fishpaste! I actually feel good. Lingering headache, but overall, nothing hurts.

What's Wrong??
You're skiing again
post #830 of 1017
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Originally Posted by skier_j View Post
we moved since this started, I'm leaning away from location or things in the house, although not entirely! we are still in the same water system.

If it is environment, I'm wondering if it might be something in the water treatment in town??
Just remember, unless you left EVERYTHING back in the old house -- chairs, bedding, your clothes, changed to all new detergent, whatever, you really didn't leave that much behind.
post #831 of 1017
Thats true! we do have most of the same stuff we had in VT---which was the 3rd house back and the last time she felt good was before the pill snorting episode,

She has thought of removing the matress topper just to see if that had any impact.
post #832 of 1017
I hate to suggest this, but ... pets?
post #833 of 1017
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Originally Posted by mdf View Post
I hate to suggest this, but ... pets?
same ones in all cases---but that does not necessarily rule them out! Compare away from home to at home and they are definatley in the mix---but so am I
post #834 of 1017
sj--do you use any "male" perfumes/aftershaves/flavored deodorants?
post #835 of 1017
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sj--do you use any "male" perfumes/aftershaves/flavored deodorants?
nope
nope
hmmm! whatever is on sale and buy in bulk!
post #836 of 1017
Thread Starter 
tested for cat allergies...negative.

I find it very interesting that I felt really really good until I went to the post office at 3:30 this afternoon. There was ice on the windshield of the car and I had to scrape really hard to get it off before I could drive. I came around to the other side of the car and the driveway was covered in ice and I slipped and caught myself with a lot of twisting jerking movement.

INSTANT HEADACHE, NECKACHE and it is still here at 10 pm.

WWSD? (What would Sherlock do?)
post #837 of 1017
That's It!!!!! You're alergic to jerks.

The Holmes solution, of course, was opiates.

SJ--Most deodorant manufacturers produce an unscented version.

I find anything that's scented irritates my skin.
post #838 of 1017
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I felt good on Saturday, and spent most of the hours from 3-8:30 pm skiing at Bousquet. Snow was thick in spots, shaved to the ice in others, moguled and was snowing all day and night, but I was trying my new Head Cool Thang skis. I like them even though I was still being bounced around due to Bad Technique. Consider me to be re-learning to ski.

I find it interesting that I started out feeling fairly good that day (while still having a headache), then the next morning woke up with what I can only describe as a 9.5 on a 10 scale of headache pain.

I drug myself around on Sunday, and eventually succumbed to bed about 5 pm, with the intent of reading the paper and taking a short nap. I woke up feeling worse around 6:30........I asked Jeff to give me another half hour and woke at 7 feeling even worse.

The interesting thing is that I can move my head without neck pain and that gritty sand against bone sound/feel isn't there. I thought for sure I would have some neck pain. I don't.

Today......headache is still here upon waking, and didn't leave all day. I am struggling to get anything done because I just want to curl up and die.

I've always been energetic and one of those Type A people. Now I can barely force myself to do the basics. It's frustrating and depressing, and while I still get up and get dressed every day, I'm wondering what would happen if I just gave up and spent the day doing what my body is crying to do (nothing but sleep). And what if that cry is from depression, and not from a physical need?

I see the neurologist tomorrow for a one month follow up on the botox. I want my face back. Is there an anti-dote to this stuff? It sure isn't doing what he'd hoped would happen. I just don't know where to go from here to get something resembling life back.
post #839 of 1017
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I'm in a pissy mood today. My neurologist gave up on me....literally.

He said, "I've done all I can do. Find someone else. My advice to you is to move, because you always feel better when you leave here. Your problems started when you snorted the pill, and I think your headaches are from Atmospheric Pressure that may be worse here than there. I'm sorry I can't help you."

He mentioned going to Mass General in Boston but he forgot I've already been that route. When I reminded him of the 'care' I got there, he said, "Oh, yes, well.....that's no good." He teaches at Harvard Medical part time.

So I've been abandoned yet again, dismissed without diagnosis, relief, or even a hint of suggestion as to what to do, other than "find someone else".

I am one angry and depressed person today, but I'll have to try and live with this. Pardon me while I scream for a minute.

It's time to end this diary. What's the point? After 2 years, I'm still the same.
post #840 of 1017
Wow, how utterly depressing. I know this sounds nuts, but has anyone tried treating you with pure oxygen? My dentist recommended it to me for headaches once.

Maybe you can try tracking barometric readings to good and bad days?
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