"Are you as good as you think you are?" This is always a very hard question for me:
The problem is that reality is not how you perceive yourself to be, reality is how other people see you negotiating your environment: bbbutt its easy to dismiss them as pure idiots eh.
I often ski with two idiots named Stu and Pid. I believe I ski far better than I do when I utter the dumbest phrase on the slopes "Hey guyz watch this!"------usually more often than somewhat followed by more than one co-payment. I am not positive that I have outgrown this affliction. I can a least recognize when the phase is coming up.
I generally ski terrain that is no where's near as gnarly as I use to. As I have gotten better at skiing I seem to like easier terrain too. I enjoy rippin short radius dynamic turns on a green groomer as much as I like double black diamond trees.
There are still certain ski conditions that when encountered, will shut down all common sense or rational thinking. I cannot resist black diamond ungroomed terrain that is refrozen coral, especially if its bumped up if and when it happens to be open. I am always alone in this terrain so at least I try to ski under a lift. Comments from the lift do not inspire a sense of fantastic skiing. Everything seems in slow motion with a quiet upper body, I am loose as a goose and on fire but me feet are so chaotic I can't stop laughing. I have no idea why this does not trigger a sense of fear. At 60 yrs old, I feel like a juvenile delinquent defying some mythical authority (confirmed by people on the lift). When skiing black diamond coral I don't know if I am good and stupid or just plain stupid.
When I get tired and sore, I am always the furthest away from my vehicle that its possible to be at the resort. Shopping for turns does not make me feel awe inspiring as the clock tics away and I worry about making it back. I do not seem to have any software built into me for detecting when this will happen.
When good ski instructors tell me my turns have never been better, my turns always seem to be some of the most boring turns I have ever done. I have to wonder if I shouldn't just throw something in there to liven things up and give them something to see.
When the general public tells me that my skiing is fantastic I have to take it in context: Some of the neatest feeling skiing I do is always followed by senior citizens in my face. Some of the most painful skiing I do is followed by awesome dude from an under 30 snowboarder of skier. When a family of four tells me that my skiing is very inspiring I am having a very good day. When young kids laugh and tell me I ski funny I am having a fantastic day.
I do not dwell on my skiing anywhere near as much as I used to and don't think much or listen of music when I ski. I positively suck at walking after I ski, does that count?
In short, I can ramble on about the question but answer it more like a Washington politician. There is always some ars-hole that is better. An ars-hole is someone who can do something, anything that I drool over.