I like the term "Sensation Seeker". For me it's always been about calculated risk. Never saw myself as a big risk-taker or thrill seeker, but other people may have viewed me as one. I felt that I trained hard and prepared so I really wasn't taking risks. I wasn't very impulsive at all.
My endorphin flow isn't related to speed. I started out as a racer, and did fairly well. But I was more for precision--that's probably why I turned to freestyle (ballet, mogul, aerials.)
I think I'm always looking for the perfect run. In ballet, you wanted that perfect axle or perfect pole flip. In moguls, you wanted that perfect line and wanted to ride that fine line being on the edge of control. I really wasn't into aerials and gave that part up--big air wasn't a risk I wanted to take, most likely because I didn't have the chance to train for it very much.
When I wasn't training, I actually still headed more for the bumps than the powder. It was about precision. I have to laugh when I think about how much powder I didn't ski in Utah. When I came out west I stunk skiing powder since I spent 15 years skiing on my edges on blue ice!
Now, 20+ years later. All the skills aren't there, but there is still that elusive perfectly carved turn where you get into a rhythm that makes it almost effortless. Getting on shaped skis for the first time (after skiing slalom skis all my life) was really fun to get the mechanics down and let the skis rebound and work with gravity.
Next, I'll start searching for tha perfect powder run and that will keep the endorphins flowing.